Well, see, now, I told you I would post a portion and I have. Take a lookie! [link]

As it say's in my comment that it is not finished. People should know why if you read my journals. Well recap for those who don't read! I just don't want to do anything anymore. Perhaps it's my laziness.

Well, now, at this time in my life I am a college student and I'm very busy. The only reason why I have time to post this is because I'm on my reading break. Oh! And I told you I would make it to college! I got into the program that I said I would.

Did anyone make their Christmas List yet? I JUST DID! I fUcking can't wait for the holiday's! It will mean that I get a bunch of crap that I need and want and things I wont use, but hey, who gives a fuck cuz it's Christmas! And another thing, the holiday's will mean I got through my first semester ALIVE!

"Dear Mom, er Santa I mean!
I want a hair straighter, clothes or a gift certificate, cuz as you know my ass is skinnier then my legs so it's hard to find a pair of pants. Makeup, and of course money! How else am I going to pay for my $1000 dollars of books I need for my second semester cuz my school is run by Jews and it costs $5 bucks for a little key chain from the book store there. (I'm not kidding about the $1000 books, this is not including my equipment such as steel toed boots, hard hat, compass, maps etc...) And books because you know I have all the time in the world to read with 7 assignments a week due. These books will be: PenDragon Book 10 Soldiers of Halla and PenDragon Travelers Book 1, 2 and 3 by D.J. MacHale. [link] Brisingr by Christopher Paolini. [link] Bless these authors for they write amazing stories. I want a gift certificate for PetSmart cuz what other money am I going to buy Kahlua's Christmas gifts with? [link] I need socks WITHOUT THE TAB THINGYS! and they have to be ankle socks. And the last thing on my list is a laptop. I want it purple or brown or green. OR all of the ABOVE!

Love,
The spoiled brat waiting under the Christmas tree.

P.S. I also want a kayak."

Hello might post a drawing soon. Kinda missing a certain project I didn't finish and it's my best yet even though its on construction paper hawhaw! You guys havn't seen a portion of it yet or anything so I hope you will be anticipating it!

Hey DA. It's been forever since I have updated my journal and added anything new.

I haven’t been working on anything in particular that I wanted to post on here but since I've gone through another Visual Arts credit I do have some stuff but the specific one that I think is successful out of this semester is not finished and still needs to be marked by my teacher.

I wouldn’t be looking forward to seeing my next entry since it might be a year from now you never know with me. There’s just no heart in it anymore. But I will finish this particular drawing because I think it's one of the best I have done considering I put a lot of thought in it. I used a lot of my imagination for a particular reason. I’ve stated my slump back in other journals and said basically I was going to stop copying other's works cuz it makes me feel like crap.

I was motivated to use my own ideas because of a particular person who I'm very close to. He actually signed up not to long ago and I guess I'll be featuring him now: [link]

Idk how to make the Icon thing. I’ve tried a million times and it never works and just turns out to be mumbo jumbo text. If someone wants to point out how u do it I'd be pleased.

Anyway back to my admirer... He doesn't have anything on his page yet but watch him and see the amazing things he comes up with. A complex mind I'd say, very smart. He might leave you comments that make you scratch your head sometimes. Recent picture of us [link] Aren’t we Keeeeeewwwt!? Ha Ha

I'm sure everyone has heard about Twilight by now. There seems to be a lot of overly emotional feelings towards the series. Either you absolutely go mental over Twilight and all or you think the whole thing is "gay" and so is Edward cuz he sparkles. What ever you think about it, that's fine. I think people are strange. I never watched the movie-yet- but I read the book and New Moon. I'm half way done Eclipse. I think it's a great series. But I think people need to tone it down a bit. ITS JUST A BOOK!

Anyways, what's with all this change with DA? It's okay I guess, I'm not fussy about it. The only problem I have is with my list of people who I watch. I can never find it. That bugs me.

Happy New Years everyone. I forgot I didn't tell you all yet.

I have mentioned in past Journals about my career path and about steering away from art. I am still doing what I said but I narrowed it down specifically to what I want. I plan on going for my Science Bachelors Degree for Environmental Restoration Technician. Exactly what I want. Helping to restore the environment. When I tell people what I want to do they always ask what is it so that’s why I explained a little on it.

But yeah about the steering away art topic. I'm less and less enthused about my creations and I feel like every time I work on something I feel depressed and pressured. I tried changing my tactics but still no pleasure or new ideas have occurred. I still feel pleased with my latest creation what ever it may be but not enough to keep me going. I guess its a sad poor thing, some close friends say it's a shame because Im good. I'm not boasting or anything just saying that’s how much I don’t enjoy working anymore. I hope in the future after I take a long long break that I will rediscover the joys and success feelings that I once had back in the day. I will be pleased with myself if that ever happens. Until then idk what my hobby is... The wilderness? My pets? My relationships? My books? What ever the case may be, I hope I turn out happy.

I just watched this video not to long ago. Holy. This girl made me sweat just watching her talk. "People think I have A.D.D. But I really don't have A.D.D. Hehe!" [link]Rq6OSkLkKs&feature=channel_page (If the link doesnt work just search BoxxyakaMoldyBread. That's her Username and the video is called FOAR EVERYWUN FRUM BOXXY) Cute but crazy or maybe she's just putting on a show. Idk. She reminds me of my sister in some memories LOL

Oh man. School. I thought it would never come but summer had to stop at some point...

I'm so stressed! Stupid school. My sister helped me look at colleges, future career options and programs. That really made me bum out cuz then it dawned on me. I'm behind! I was so busy with my art and all and neglected my back up plan...

I completly switched lanes and now its fucking my semester up. Considering I'm in grade 13 (graduated in 12 mind you), it's time to start carring especially when you don't know what your doing for college AT ALL. It's time for me to grow up since I am.. Ya know... *Gulp* an ADULT. Dun dun dun....

So, since Iv'e ditched art as a career I decided to go back to my first best interest and that would be life it's self. Nature. It's always been there for me to enjoy even when I was a wee one. I guess I forgot about my second nature by growing out of my "tom-boy" stage... Unfortunetly. But I miss it. So I'm going to make the biggest goal for myself. To become... An Ecologist. I always loved science. But I'm not one to be labeled * Scientist * But I'm making myself reach this goal as a personal gain. Ive never reached anything to be proud of by smarts. This is why I'm being so serious. I need to get my grade 11 Biology and Chemistry. Also, grade 12 Biology and Chemistry and string along my worst subject of all...Math...Yikes! I think thats the thing I'm so stressed about. I'm so bad at it. It depresses me.

I feel like I'm back in my rut. Maybe it's just school that gets me depressed. I can't wait till im done highschool.

And no... I have not done any drawings lately besides a fish tattoo for a friend. This rotten feeling doesnt help when being creative. Really brings ya down. This can't be good for my art class. I can't wait till we get further in the course so I can do w.e the hell I want. I hate structured assignments.

I havnt gotten that awesome present for my boytoy So all he got for his B-Day from me was a tripy poster. Oh yay... The people I asked to get it for me still havnt given it to me. Darn... Hopefully give it to me soon and maybe I'll rewrap it for a different occasion... If I get it by the next time theres a big thing going on. Who knows. Never leave a task to men! They take FOREVER!

Before I go check this vid out. [link] ...Nucking Futs...

O. M. F. G. I just wrote like this huge journal and it didn't even publish! AAAAAAGGHH!

Let's try this...again... Painfully mind you.

Okay so you may or may have not noticed yet that I have finished my Goggle Girl!!! YAY! I never thought I'd get it done but I finally did. [link] and... [link] for a cloder look. All done! For now maybe.

I recently had my 18th birthday party. I brought it downstairs to show my hubby how my progresss was doing. Then everyone just flawked to it. I'm glad they liked it. My friend Trev said I should do a background. I'm not so sure. Thay're just so BOOORINGG TO DO!!! (PLUS since I don't like doing them i'm afraid I'll ruin it...) But I do want to better myself. I have weaned myself off (kinda) of drawing just what the reference looks like. So now it's time to move a step further I guess. But not with this one just yet.

I have another idea I want to do. Ive recently been ga ga for Iguanas lately. I just need to draw one! Thay're so cool!!! Then after that I want to do some fan art from a book called Firebird. I don't knwo the authour. I tryed looking for it on the internet but I could no find It was such a good book too. Fantasy of course that's why it was so good

Oh, summer is almost over. But I wont dred just yet cuz I'm going to Canada's Wonderland and a few birthday parties PLUS may baby's birthday. I can't wait to see his face when he opens his gift! I wont say anything about it here in case he reads this for some reason. I'll let ya know after though.

Ta ta!